When could I lead a "normal" life?

Salam 'alaykum sistazzz!

So today I went on a mission to have a lighter breakfast or maybe not to have it at all. Since I calculated that Long John sandwich I had for breakfast contain toooooo much calories. 

Here is what I ate today. 

Thursday, 11/2/2016

Breakfast 

- A glass of water with one teaspoon of apple cider vinegar 

****went to school****

Once I reached class I saw a KILLER. 

My classmate happily surprise us with hershey deluxe chocolate on the table. There were 5 for 5 of us. 

So... I took one. 

I gobbled it on the spot. 

What a way to start breakfast! 

By 11:30am, I dont know what my lecturer is blabbering about. My stomach was growling already. It felt like as if there was a mini toad in me. Lol. 

So, I went to the canteen to buy a sandwich. Unfortunately, it was sold out so I have no choice but to buy 1 curry puff and 1 samosa.  That was all I had for breakfast. 

Lunch

 - I requested for half a bowl of rice. 

- 1 meat & 2 vege with tempe & tofu (heard its good for us lol) 

Lastly was, Dinner 

- 1 choco cone mcdonalds ice cream (to satisfy my craving) 

- 1/2 pear 

Workout: 50 mins of HIIT

During my workout,  I had this very emotional thing running in my mind when I look at myself in the mirror. I cried a lot and I reflected on this journey being a fat girl. There's too much toxic and negativities. Not only in your body, but also the people around you.

Disclaimer: I had tried losing weight since 2010 and it has been 6 years now. The thing that stopped me was the drive. I simply found none. My weight went up and down like a yo-yo. 

I don't know if this time round it will be a success for me. I have never seen myself at an ideal/acceptable/healthy weight since like Primary One? All along I was overweight and I felt life was unfair. BUT yes to your perception that life will never be fair. 

Then again what's the point if you know your Only problem is to lose weight and you will live a normal life. I'm not asking for life to be fair, but at least be NORMAL. 

Normal in a sense no one will feel like you took up so much space in the MRT seat, normal where people don't have any reason to mock at your size, normal in a way where people don't have this thinking that you are lazy, inactive, love to eat alot, love to fart alot ect. 

I've seen a lot of weight loss stories. I wish to Allah, I pray that I am given the chance to finally make this weight loss a success too just like 'em all . I definitely know how all of you fat people feel. It's ugly. Discriminating. 

Love, 

xxTikosxx

This list of what I ate and do will get better day by day Insya Allah

Salam'alaykum geng! 

So this is what I did and gobbled yesterday and today: 

Tuesday, 9/2/2016 

Breakfast: 

-A glass of water with 1 tsp of apple cider vinegar 

-3 pisang goreng lol 

Lunch: 

- 3 pieces of murtabak daging 

- A packet of low fat milk

Dinner:

-3 kuih tart 

-5 kuih makmur lolol fail sia Minah 

Workout: 45 min of HIIT 

Wednesday, 10/2/2016

Breakfast: 

-A glass of water with 1 tsp of apple cider vinegar 

- 2 biscuit 

- Half a long john sandwich, french toast with grilled chicken and omelette 

- One hashbrown 

- Lots of plain water no sweet drinks at all til lunch 

Lunch: 

- One bowl of chicken noodle with wanton 

(376 kcal)

- 1 taro pie (lolol) this is like a regret coz it adds to my calorie intake 

- 1 can of green tea ^_^ 

P.S: I nearly wanted to buy an ice cream from Mcdonalds  

Dinner: 

1 kuih tart 

3 kuih makmur 

1 piece of oreo 

Workout: NONE! Coz am too tired I slept all the way after I reached home from school. 

I try not to eat after 6. But thanks to this puaka I ate 3 of them because I just cant resist the temptation. 

Thanks, PUAKA.

xTikosx

I will work on it!

Ohaaai.

I'm here to update on my ridiculous food intake for today. Oh dear. Here goes nothing.....

As soon as I woke up at 5.30am, I freaking drank a packet of Lychee drink. I swear this is not a practice. I've never ever done it before, to be exact. I have no idea why I did it, honestly. I was probably still half asleep. Lulz. (excuses...)

Then, I had a 2 packets of Kid-Os in the office. 75kcal(?) each packet T^T 

I brewed myself a cup of Nescafe with a packet of creamer and 1/4 sachet of artificial sweetener because I was extremely sleepy, I'm not even kidding you. 

And during lunch, I told myself I was gonna have something light. But guess what? It didn't happen. I had kway teow goreng topped with a fried egg and sambal, WHAT THE HECK. I was hating myself for such a decision, every bite I took in. Astaghfirullah. This sister had to istighfar. D:

In the afternoon, a colleague offered me some Loacker wafers and I probably had 6 - 7 cubes of that extremely yummy but evil stuff.

Before dinner, I had a loaf of pandan bread, a cream cheese bun and a cup of yoghurt drink. :(

And dinner was WALAAAH~

Salad made with endives, some chicken flesh, cherry tomatoes and topped with roasted sesame dressing. Not exactly healthy, if you ask me. Oh and I had 2 oranges after dinner. CNY season lah! Heee..

 Allah. Listing out the food I had throughout the day might be a good idea. It makes me reflect on my food intake and make me feel guilty for my choice of food. Let's hope it will get better!!

 As for physical activities.... I haven't got around to it. I would like to, but I've an assignment to complete! Excuses, I know. Okay, okay I will work on it somehow okay? Gaaaah.

Okay, til my next post!

Love,

Cakcakcicaks :-*

Fun Run? For FUN??!

Are you readyyyy?!

Are you ready to run the unflattering joy ride to success?

Our FIRST step was to dig our own grave and join a 5km run with Osim Sundown this May 2016. 

Yeaaah obviously it wasn't out of our own willingness.

We definitely felt forced. 

You know who force us? Yes it is YOU. 

 Every single one of you who mocks at fat people like they owe you one gazillion truck loads of money.Guilty?

 Haha! 

Well, I hope our journey won't be as dramatic lah. We are still young and new in this. We wish Allah give us the light,spirit and strength to go through this journey together. We wish Allah grant us success in what we want to achieve.

Insya Allah. 

P.S: So far for today I've ate 5 kuih makmur. Lol.

xTikosx

Hello!

Ahaaa!

So this blog has been created! The purpose of this blog is to keep track of our activities(mainly exercises, if any) and of our food intake. Lets try to make this work!

Yeehaaaaa!

Love,

Cicak(Lia) :-*